"good news...looks like we got it all...he's cancer free"
site is clean"..
he continued.."there's one lymph node in the neck we want to check further...probably just scar tissue...we'll do a CT Scan next week and if it lights up we'll just remove it." ....(if it lights up?)
Now this part is even more strange...I returned to the bathroom and relayed the message to Bobby...all he did was put his arms around me to comfort me as I shed tears (of course) into his neck.
He said nothing.
"Aren't you relieved?"...
a mild "I guess so."...
"you guess so?"
"hadn't you considered the possibility of the treatment not being successful?"
"not really...it's hard for me to get excited about anything .. there's so much wrong with me."
Not to be a downer ... or diminish the joy we all feel now...but
I was so sad for him. He's right...there is still much healing to be done...much ground to cover in the months ahead...and he is still suffering (silently)..
God will see us through this as he has done the last four months. I anxiously await the day when he smiles again.