Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Death can...Death Cannot
Death can seperate our bodies...but it can not seperate our spirits......WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN...it may be in spirit only..... but I'll settle for that.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
We have plans
I'm feeling refreshed after a good nights sleep..hope it will hold out over the weekend.
Tonight: a painting class with Barb and LL http://myspiritedart.com/
Tomorrow: church, http://www.jwbc.org/
followed by lunch at the Red Lobster with Barb, Peggy and Beth http://www.redlobster.com/
followed by a Christmas play at the Burritt Museum
http://www.burrittonthemountain.com/
followed by our sunday school class Christmas dinner party
Monday:
Tonight: a painting class with Barb and LL http://myspiritedart.com/
Tomorrow: church, http://www.jwbc.org/
followed by lunch at the Red Lobster with Barb, Peggy and Beth http://www.redlobster.com/
followed by a Christmas play at the Burritt Museum
http://www.burrittonthemountain.com/
followed by our sunday school class Christmas dinner party
Monday:
Friday, December 17, 2010
Caramia's first Christmas
As she is only eleven months old and hasn't a clue about what will be happening all around the world on the morning of Dec. 25. she received my gift to her early...her first baby doll and stroller..
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Praising God in the Valley
I have not been praising God through this valley I've been traveling through...my sorrow and grief has trapped me.....it has blinded me for a while..I am now able to cry out to God...and he hears me...God sends His love... even when His children are not faithful....HE is faithful. It may be that I will remain in this valley until I am reunited with my beloved, but He sustains me......and I anxiously await that day.
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Jesus, Lover of my soul
Let me to Thy bosom fly
While the nearer waters roll,
While the tempest still is high
Hide me, O my Saviour, hide
Till the storm of life is past.
John Wesley
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Jesus, Lover of my soul
Let me to Thy bosom fly
While the nearer waters roll,
While the tempest still is high
Hide me, O my Saviour, hide
Till the storm of life is past.
John Wesley
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I'll have a blue Christmas without you,
I'll be so blue thinking about you,
Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree
won't mean a thing dear if you're not here with me.
I'll have a blue Christmas that's certain,
And when those blue heartaches start hurtin
You'll be doin' alright with your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue, blue Christmas
I'll be so blue thinking about you,
Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree
won't mean a thing dear if you're not here with me.
I'll have a blue Christmas that's certain,
And when those blue heartaches start hurtin
You'll be doin' alright with your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue, blue Christmas
Monday, December 13, 2010
Chattanooga weekend
Barbara's Christmas trip for her family this year was to Chattanooga where we stayed at the Chattanooga Choo Choo Hotel ...it included a ride to the North Pole on the Polor Express train, a visit on the train from Santa himself, his helpers who served us gingerbread cookies, chocolate milk and music!!! After the ride we enjoyed great pizza at Lupi's on Market St. downtown Chattanooga...I highly recommend it. .At 10 pm Santa's Elves visited the childrens rooms where they told them a story, gave them a gift and tucked them into bed. We had breakfast Sunday morning at the hotel ...a delicious buffet. Then, as the weather was worsening...very cold, freezing snow flurrys, etc. we headed for home ....a two hour drive from Huntsville. Thank you, Barbara.
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Thursday, December 9, 2010
Callaway Gardens, Cecil B. Day Butterfly Garden, Sibley Horticulture Ctr, and FDR's Little White House
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Monday, December 6, 2010
The Christmas Letter
This is the time of year when we like to share with friends who, perhaps, live far away or, at least, not close enough to have shared the years events as they occurred. I always enjoy receiving "Christmas Letters"...noticing what kind of paper is used, how each one is laid out, the attitudes expressed by the writer, etc....not to mention hearing what has occurred in the life of each friend. As a rule the information is shared in the order of occurrence...i.e. Jan. thru Dec...
I don't think I've ever written one..and this year will be no exception..
primarily because the events in my life were of such magnitude that anyone who knows me has already been informed
Besides; who wants to hear that in January and February, Bob, who had already suffered much in 2009, began to slip away from us?.
Who wants to hear that in Jan. and Feb. his weakened, 80 year old body had pneumonia twice and was in the hospital at lease three times..
Who wants to hear of our anxiety over getting him home ...our emphasis had switched from doing everything in our power to keep him alive to just getting him home and keeping him as comfortable as possible .....we did not want him to die in a hospital .The previous 10 months he had spent so much time in one that he came to really resent being there..we wanted him home! God granted us that.
Who wants to hear that the first two weeks in March he lay unable to hear, speak, move...
Who wants to hear that a week before he died his condition had became so critical that Hospice told us to stop feeding him because his normal body functions were shutting down and it could possibly cause him to vomit and choke to death and it would also only prolong his suffering? Who, in their right mind, wants to hear that!
And what about my "attitude"?
This is where I should talk about how good our God is...how His love is enough to fill the void in my life...to sustain me through my grief...to give me peace..... I never expected us to escape death...of course it is inevitable...and as His word tells us "time and chance happens to us all."..so there was no great surprise experienced when he was diagnosed with cancer...well, I guess there was some...He had been so diligent with taking care of himself...exercising, eating right, had never been sick except for an occasional cold, while I, on the other hand was not nearly as self-disciplined and my body is paying the price...I expected that I would be the first to go.
This is where I should exhibit a good example of what being a Christian means...I know in my heart that He is there for me...but my every thought is of my loss..my every moment alone is with Bob..I don't want to "get on with life" if it means leaving him behind..he's been with me always.
I do have much to be grateful for and I'm thankful for that...
..... perhaps peace will come at a later date...I'm not there yet..
I don't think I've ever written one..and this year will be no exception..
primarily because the events in my life were of such magnitude that anyone who knows me has already been informed
Besides; who wants to hear that in January and February, Bob, who had already suffered much in 2009, began to slip away from us?.
Who wants to hear that in Jan. and Feb. his weakened, 80 year old body had pneumonia twice and was in the hospital at lease three times..
Who wants to hear of our anxiety over getting him home ...our emphasis had switched from doing everything in our power to keep him alive to just getting him home and keeping him as comfortable as possible .....we did not want him to die in a hospital .The previous 10 months he had spent so much time in one that he came to really resent being there..we wanted him home! God granted us that.
Who wants to hear that the first two weeks in March he lay unable to hear, speak, move...
Who wants to hear that a week before he died his condition had became so critical that Hospice told us to stop feeding him because his normal body functions were shutting down and it could possibly cause him to vomit and choke to death and it would also only prolong his suffering? Who, in their right mind, wants to hear that!
And what about my "attitude"?
This is where I should talk about how good our God is...how His love is enough to fill the void in my life...to sustain me through my grief...to give me peace..... I never expected us to escape death...of course it is inevitable...and as His word tells us "time and chance happens to us all."..so there was no great surprise experienced when he was diagnosed with cancer...well, I guess there was some...He had been so diligent with taking care of himself...exercising, eating right, had never been sick except for an occasional cold, while I, on the other hand was not nearly as self-disciplined and my body is paying the price...I expected that I would be the first to go.
This is where I should exhibit a good example of what being a Christian means...I know in my heart that He is there for me...but my every thought is of my loss..my every moment alone is with Bob..I don't want to "get on with life" if it means leaving him behind..he's been with me always.
I do have much to be grateful for and I'm thankful for that...
..... perhaps peace will come at a later date...I'm not there yet..
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Thanksgiving with my "Texas family"
Brian, Joey, Bobby, Jacob, Eddie and Jack
Laura Beth and Jack
Eddie
Happy 16th. Brian
Laura and I
SaRita and David
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Bob
Watch this video again with this in mind, In almost every picture where he is with someone else, he is touching, arms around, holding hands, etc...he gave so much of himself.....he loved us all. Look into his eyes... his goodness and honesty shown through... soooo honest, almost to a fault...he did not hold back...LORD, HOW I MISS HIM..
Today I can watch this and smile..last night I could only weep...my moods are as a seewaw...up and down, back and forth..
Today I can watch this and smile..last night I could only weep...my moods are as a seewaw...up and down, back and forth..
Me
Bewildered, dumbfounded, puzzled, discontented.....weary ....that is me.
It's 3 am...is this the reason for the mess that I'm in.? insomnia certainly contributes to it.....I do feel almost human at times... when rested...but those times are too infrequent for my liking.
And what about Thanksgiving...giving thanks! Why is it so hard to do when I have much to be thankful for? I was blessed to be able to spend time with my children in Texas... that I've not seen since June...and our life-long friends there. And my family here...supportive and loving.... why is that not enough to overcome the emptiness I feel in my heart...in my life? I know "things could be worse" and I truly want to stop feeling so sorry for myself...being such a drag ...but I can't keep him out...and I don't want to keep him out. I need him...Okay, I'm just gonna lay it all out ... this sorrow is over whelming at times...and this is one of those times.
It's 3 am...is this the reason for the mess that I'm in.? insomnia certainly contributes to it.....I do feel almost human at times... when rested...but those times are too infrequent for my liking.
And what about Thanksgiving...giving thanks! Why is it so hard to do when I have much to be thankful for? I was blessed to be able to spend time with my children in Texas... that I've not seen since June...and our life-long friends there. And my family here...supportive and loving.... why is that not enough to overcome the emptiness I feel in my heart...in my life? I know "things could be worse" and I truly want to stop feeling so sorry for myself...being such a drag ...but I can't keep him out...and I don't want to keep him out. I need him...Okay, I'm just gonna lay it all out ... this sorrow is over whelming at times...and this is one of those times.
Monday, November 29, 2010
''To aII the ships at sea and aII the ports of caII.To my famiIy and to aII friends and strangers. ''
my message for him...
"Thanks for the times that you've given me the memories are all in my mind.
And now that we've come to the end of our rainbow
there's something that I must say,
You shared my dreams, my joys, my pain
you made my life worth living.
And if I had my life to live over again
I'd spend each and every moment with you.
When we were together
the moments I treasure with every beat of my heart.
To touch you, to hold you, to feel you, to know you"
only death could keep us apart
from "Three Times A Lady" written by Lionel Richie
this is not goodby...l will never say goodby ...
And now that we've come to the end of our rainbow
there's something that I must say,
You shared my dreams, my joys, my pain
you made my life worth living.
And if I had my life to live over again
I'd spend each and every moment with you.
When we were together
the moments I treasure with every beat of my heart.
To touch you, to hold you, to feel you, to know you"
only death could keep us apart
from "Three Times A Lady" written by Lionel Richie
Helloooo
insomnia (ɪnˈsɒmnɪə)
chronic inability to fall asleep or to enjoy uninterrupted sleep
Related: agrypnotic
I'm sure the coffee and m&m's that I'm indulging myself with isn't helping, but hey !!! if I can't enjoy some much needed rest I may as well enjoy the awake time...that's my theory anyway...
I spent most of the day unpacking and displaying the Christmas decorations in my home...candles, lights, santas, angels, yule trees...red, green, gold, white, ...lovely reminders of the season.
Historically, Christmas commemorates the birth of Jesus of Nazareth to a young maiden from Galilee.
Theologically, Christmas is the celebration of the incarnation of God in Jesus the Christ, the self-revelation of God to the world in human form for the reconciliation of humanity to Himself. All the details of the various accounts concerning Jesus’ birth revolve around that central truth.
My faith lies in the theological version...
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Bobby and Brian
Enjoying a slow-paced, quiet morning with two of my best buddies...watching TV
Jack watch us..watching TV
Friday, November 19, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Forever In Our Hearts
A million times we needed you, a million times we cried,
If love alone could save you, you never would have died.
A light from our household is gone, a voice from our life is stilled,
A place in our home is vacant, which never can be filled.
Some may think you are forgotten, though on earth you are no more,
But in our memory you are with us, as you always were before.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone,
God has you safely in his keeping,
... we have you forever in our hearts
Herk
If love alone could save you, you never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly, in death we love you still,
In our hearts you hold a place that no one can ever fill.A light from our household is gone, a voice from our life is stilled,
A place in our home is vacant, which never can be filled.
Some may think you are forgotten, though on earth you are no more,
But in our memory you are with us, as you always were before.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone,
A part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
Your precious memories are for keepsakes, with which we'll never part,God has you safely in his keeping,
... we have you forever in our hearts
you and me, babe.... I'll never let you go.........
Laura
Eddie
Barbara
Nicki
Brian
Bobby playing the thumping game
da boys
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